c - section confirmed today

Well it's official! baby Joshua should be arriving around 7:30 am on the 26th of December. I was at the hospital today and the lady that was booked in for the morning c - section, had her baby today. Sooooo We have to be at the hospital at 6 am (whoa) now I'm getting nervous.

So many babies were being born today, as I was waiting to see the nurse for pre-admission I over heard a excited new father in the lobby making phone calls to family. It was really sweet and I started to get a little emotional myself, as that will be Craig in just one more day. Walking down the hall past the breast feeding clinic I got to admire a few brand new babies, gosh they are just so small! I forgot how tiny they are ...

I am so afraid about the c - section and if I will be ok, I'm sure I will, I have a great Doctor and the nurses are great. Still, I can't seem to put Andrew's birth out of my mind and just relax. What really stinks is that the nurse told me today that I can't take anything to help with my anxiety. She told me it will make the baby drowsy and I don't want that. So I'm just hoping that I will be able breath through my anxiety ....